Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Laziness

Today I have things to do on my *to do* list.....let me say that this list is, so far, just in my head...

But I've been convicted lately of being idle and lazy.

Not through anyone else, just through my own musings. Just through my own thoughts of "I know what needs to be done around here, I know what I should be doing....."

But I'm not doing, and have not done, a constructive thing today!

Oh, I made myself something to eat!! I actually moved off the couch!!

PATHETIC!

I make myself sick, really.

Let me share with you some of the things that need to be done around here, and also some of the things I really have been wanting to do but have been to lazy to do them:

  • Things need to be planted in the front yard! Tomatoes for my *famous* salsa. Cucumbers. Peppers. More strawberries.
  • I have some rearranging I want to do in the house. Moving this from here to there, putting that in there instead of there.....
  • I want to get my 14 foot wall in my living room decorated! I've got plans that are half done, and even a picture of the before, but I'm just too stinkin' lazy!
  • I need to bake so we have treats in the hot weather that *will* come sometime this summer, hopefully!
  • I need to take a shower and get pretty for Dave.
  • I need to go buy my little Sofia a swimsuit, a hat, and some other good stuff that the girls don't need but I like to shop at my favorite thrift stores!
  • I need to actually *plan* dinner before 8 pm tonight!
  • I've got to call my friend and arrange a playdate. She's without a car right now, so we are *so sad* that we will have to go over to their house!!
  • Sometime today I have to move off the couch and take a walk around the block. I'm woefully out of shape!
See what I mean?? I kill myself! I harp on my kids not to be lazy ALL THE TIME, but look at me! I'm being a very, very poor example for myself and my kids.

I seriously suffer and struggle with extreme laziness and depression, which go hand-in-hand for me. There is no rhyme or reason to it, and they both strike me at anytime, unawares.

I really hate myself right now. Harsh, but true. I'm going through an emotional/mental/
spiritual/physical crises right now......

And the only way to zap it is to FORCE myself to get off the couch, pull myself up by my apron strings, and just GET BUSY!!!!!!!

You gals may not like me, if you ever met me in real life, cause you'd be shocked and sickened by how lazy I am!

But this is the first step for me, letting *someone else* know and then, taking action....

O God, please forgive me for neglecting my duties! I cry out to you, Lord, for Your mercy and Your help to get me out of this morass that I am in! I give myself to You, because I do not want to be the same! I want to become what You want me to be!

4 comments:

Renata said...

Oh dear - I also suffer from laziness - OK it's more a blog addiction, but it still stops everything getting done! My poor calf & chickens weren't fed til 4pm yesterday - usually it's about 10:30am. It must have been the day for it!
Oh & I love your blog - I think you are a great bloggy friend too!
Renata :)

EEEEMommy said...

I'll be praying for you. I tend toward laziness myself. Today I had a list of many things to do and actually had the determination to get them done, and then I got a migraine. So I spent the afternoon dozing on the couch and watching Wimbeldon. A rare treat, but not the best timing. Frustrating!

I hope you're able to get one of those things accomplished so that you can be motivated by the accompanying sense of accomplishment to tackle some of the other items! At least call your friend, it sounds like a playdate would be good for you and then you could stop at the thrift store on the way home. Not so fun with all the kids in tow, I know, but with the price of gas being what it is...and once you're out...
You can do it girl! Through Christ all things are possible, even redecorating and baking!

runningtothecross said...

Suffering from "must be lazy" syndrome...

You see...I might be having a miscarriage...I'm on strict couch rest, or at least I am supposed to be.

Everyone that is coming to help keeps telling me to go and sit down...they complain that they can't keep me down...wish I weren't so antsy. I think that it would help if I could be a little lazier...I mean, I do have my lazy points, but I don't like to be idle for long...say a prayer that I can stay a little more still!

Blessings!
Heather

Marsha said...

You are right, sometimes you do just have to force yourself to get up and get going! It can be very difficult sometimes, but I know you can do it, girl! Don't let Satan discourage you or get you down about it either... just focus on God getting you through it and carrying you when you're tired.

I think I need a lazy day. Or even couple of days. They really do a person good!