I was going to do this post with just two words.....
But I'm just not a two word girl!
Without further ado......
No, your eyes did not deceive you!
We are exactly 13 weeks and 5 days!
Now you know just how long I've been dying to do this post! Almost 3 1/2 months, to be precise!
Don't be sore or cross with me!
We figured, after the heartache and trauma that our family has endured these past several months, that it would be much easier to wait until after three months than to tell and retell in case I had another miscarriage.
I went to my three month check up with Dr. Wonderful yesterday, and heard the most wonderful, most enticing, most beautiful music to my ears: baby's heartbeat!
It's the third time I've heard it, strong and steady, working without effort.
Imagine how nervous, how scared I have been this whole time........fearing the worst and wanting so badly to tell you all!
Now you know my deepest, most delicious, most sacred secret!!
I just got done reading a book called "Mothers Together" by Ruth Bell Graham and Gigi Graham Tchividjian. It was a joint effort between the two, comprised of Ruth's poems and thoughts, and Gigi's thoughts on motherhood as well. It was inspiring. Beautiful. Thought provoking. Encouraging. And admonishing!
I want to post here a passage by Ruth, after doctors had told her and Bill that there would be little hope of them ever having a child, and it details, better than I ever could, just how I feel right now:
"At times during the day I'd be busy~then it would all flood over me again, filling me with such a sense of importance I could hardly contain it. I'd find myself thinking when with others~'You don't know, you can't tell it yet (earlier on, for me) but a new little life has started in this body. I look around me, here, and when I go to town, and I think~everyone I see and millions more~the whole world of people, came this very same way. But it just doesn't matter. I feel I'm the only one who ever had a baby. The only one God ever led the particular way Bill and I have come, bringing us to the place where so much we wanted a baby but weren't even hoping. The only one God specially touched in this way, giving us back all we had buried."
This is better than a secret box of luxurious chocolate truffles, hidden away to indulge in one by one! This is far more satisfying than a warm bath with scented candles and a great book! This is far more comfortable than a big plate of pot roast and gravy, mashed potatoes and roasted veggies........actually, mmmm, that sounds good!!
To say that our hearts burst with joy and our eyes threaten to overflow with tears at a moment's notice is an understatement!
"The Lord has done great things for us, and we are filled with joy!"
Thank You, Lord, for our baby who grows, protected and silently, in the secret place. Thank You that soon, I will feel the joy of tickles, bubbles and twirls as we wait to meet this little miracle. We want You to know that we are intensely grateful for Your favor.