Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Moving On.....

I have the best bloggy friends!

You gals really have shown me the body of Christ in action this past week, with your encouraging comments and prayers.

Now it's time to get a new post up on the blog.  I hope this one is more hopeful, more optimistic.

What have I been doing this past week?

I have been reading my Bible, even when I don't feel like it and even when I can't quite internalize what I'm reading, or when my attention span is very short (which happens a lot in this season of my life).  And slowly, very slowly, Scripture has begun to come back to life for me.  My heart has been touched the past few days.  My heart has been encouraged, strengthened a wee bit, and convicted too.  Praise God He has not alienated Himself from me the way I have alienated myself from Him!

I've been listening to a bit more music too, because I notice it makes me feel better.  It puts everything into perspective for me.  Music is, after all, my prayer language, being a singer and all.  Today I believe that God spoke to me and asked me to concentrate on lifting my voice in song and maybe, just maybe, my heart would be healed and my chains would be broken.  It was an "ah-HA!" moment.  So, I'm going to try to do more singing this week and next.  Baby steps, gals!

I really have stepped up my prayer life again.  I could believe the voice that tells me He isn't listening because I've been unfaithful.  I could believe the voice that says He doesn't want to hear about what I need or want......only deep down, I know those things just aren't true, because He says "cast all your cares on Him for He cares for you".  And "ask, seek, knock".  I spent some time this morning interceding for my kids, and it felt really good.  Some undefinable thing, deep down, slid back into place in my soul.  That's better.

There remains a very, very important thing missing for me, and that is Good Sleep! I take calcium, HTP ( a natural sleep aid, depression and anxiety fighter), and I drink Sleepytime tea, but a lot of nights I don't sleep well, and when I don't sleep well for many nights in a row, ugly things start to happen, trust me! So I need to work on the sleep area.

You know what? I don't know what's going to happen down the road.  I don't even know what's going to happen tomorrow.  But God does and He's orchestrated everything perfectly just for me.  I don't need to know why He does things, only that the Bible says that He does all things well.  I am going to find peace in that.


A Homemaker's Heart said...

Oh, this is very refreshing to read. An answer to the many cries of my heart.

I'm still open to offering your encouragement :)

Also, I just saw something on the "Followers" area on your blog asking to accept.. and I DID accept, but I think it went to an old email address. If you sent something, please know that it went to a dead email. My blog has my current information.

Continuing to uplift you in prayers,

Kathryn said...

So glad to read this :)

Renata said...

Oh Leanne - I am so pleased to hear this - I've been praying for you. I hope you can get your rest - I'm the same without sleep - I just can't function. Are you getting a daytime sleep each day? I found that wonderful with my last pregnancy. I hope you had a wonderful Christmas time with your family & have a very Happy New Year - Looking forward to "meeting" Pennie then (well not straight away, but in the year - you know what I mean). Have a wonderful day!
God bless you

Missionfieldof5 said...

I am curious about your current intake of B vitamins and of Calcium....a woman may need up to 2000g a day of Calcium and if there is not sufficient amounts the deficiency can cause insomnia....Anytime that we have stress this causes damage to our repair damage done by stress the pituitary gland and adrenal glands must work overtime to supply the necessary blood hormones that mobilize lifesaving defenses. The pituitary gland can only function properly when there is adequate protein (80+ grams a day when pregnant) vitamin E and B Vitamins.... If you are only taking one might do some research and see about taking more B vitamins to counteract the stress you have been under and then you might see a difference in your sleeping at night. God Bless~~

Lori said...

Music is the way I feel like God and I communicate too! I just can't help but be thankful (usually in tears) every time "THE" song comes on and ministers the exact words my heart needed to hear. xoxoxoxoxo

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

I am glad you are thinking on the things that are true, just, noble and of good report! God is faithful to us, even when we don't live up to our own expectations. If we were always perfect, we would never need HIM!

I love you, Leannie-Loo!

Blessed be the name of the Lord.

Rebeca said...

You continue to be in my prayers, dear one!