Sunday, November 7, 2010


It's Sunday again, and in our family that means the day that lasts forever.  It's Daddy's one day off.  It was a beautiful day.  It seems that God grants this family more hours in the day, maybe, and makes the sun crawl instead of sprint across the sky, just for us!

It's the eve before another sonogram down South at my peri's office.  As I type this, Pennie is being very energetic.  She's trying to impersonate popcorn, it feels like! We'll get to look at her again and see how she's doing and how she's hanging in there.  I've recently had a bit of an intuition lately that maybe we aren't going to make if full term, just a feeling or an inkling, or just something I can't put my finger on.  We'll know more tomorrow.

I know I've asked and begged and asked for you guys to pray for me, but I really need you to keep up the prayers on my behalf.  I tend to suffer from anxiety for no reason and depression too, and it's really, really bad tonight.  I hate it.  I struggle with anxiety when I least expect it.  Argh, I just feel like my hormones are so freaky! I still feel like I'm pregnant with twins, even though one of them has passed away.

I slept really good last night.  I went to bed way too late and I was a bit concerned about that, but I was asleep about 10 minutes after my head hit the pillow and didn't wake up till almost 5 AM! I know the time change can seem a bit like jet-lag, and so, I really want to sleep well!!!!!

Our local IGA grocery store is the most worthless time waster ever!! I don't think I've ever seen worse customer service, either.  Ugh.  I just hate going there for last minute things, and I just won't.  I'll go without before going there.  It's sad because it can be fixed and made better in a heart beat.  The long-time manager of this store was recently busted for stealing lottery tickets, to the tune of more than $100,000!! If only I was owner of that store! Ha.

My two girlfriends had a baby shower for me yesterday.  They made plans to have the shower for the twins after we had only known for a week, because I was panicking about not having enough for two girls, and they were so wonderful and gracious to help us out with our needs.  Then, of course we found out that Olivia had died after the invitations had gone out, and then had to let everyone know, yada yada yada.  The shower was yesterday and about 10 of my good friends were there and we got four outfits to donate to our hometown crisis pregnancy center in Olivia's name.  The gals let balloons go in memory of Olivia, and they wrote little notes to her that they gave to me to keep.  It was a nice time.

We still need a stroller/car seat combo for Pennie.  And we're trying to stock up on diapers and wipes.  Thank the Lord for!

I also have an appointment tomorrow with my regular OB, for my 6 month check up.  It's going to be a loooong day tomorrow, what with going all the way down South and then back up north.

I'm getting a hair cut tomorrow.  I really, really love my hair gal.  She's awesome.  She goes to a church in our hometown and she just got back from her second missions trip to Thailand.  This time she went with her 16 year old daughter.  When we had Lucie, she brought me and the kids lunch from our favorite local hamburger place.  She does everyone in our family's hair.  She's that great!! I always look forward to seeing her.

I'm craving cheese enchiladas.  And I tend to have some acidic stomach lately, which I have never, ever had, in any of my pregnancies.  Ick.  Especially at night, before bed.  So, do I really want to indulge in cheese enchiladas?

We're about to start our family time.  The family's going to eat brownies.  I'm going to watch.  Too much sugar amps up my anxiety level and then I crash into a yucky, grouchy mess.  Not tonight!

I love Celestial Seasonings Sleepytime Extra tea.  Double bag for me!

Everyone knows I hate Starbuck's, but yesterday I had a Salted Caramel Hot Cocoa.  I like fancy hot cocoa.  My husband says I'm snooty, but I hardly ever drink hot cocoa, and so, I like the good stuff.  Not enough salt, though.  It didn't live up to its name of "salted."  But it was good.  I wish there was somewhere else I could get them!

I'm going to ask for a weight estimate tomorrow on Pennie.  At my last ultrasound they said she looked bigger than she needed to be, and I've been praying that she'll put on weight and get tons of nutrients, just in case.  My doctors relax more and more with every week that goes by.

Okay, is that enough things?? Ha.  I'll let you know how Pennie is doing tomorrow.  Ta-ta!!


Devin said...

I'll be praying for you tomorrow...looking forward to hearing about Pennie!

Duckygirl said...

I'll be praying for you tomorrow during your long day of appointments! I'm glad to hear you had a nice shower thrown for you, sounded like a sweet time with friends. :O)


Emily said...

AAAH. I hate that I couldn't go to your shower. You deserved dozens of your friends to be there. Could me a 'there in spirit' person.

About the anxiety at night. That's about the only time I get it and it feels so frustrating and I end up singing to myself. You're a singer. Put on your headphones and listen to worship music? Try reading a funny book? I actually have gotten out of bed and walked into my little girls room and gotten a comic book before. FOR REAL. lol.

I'll keep you in my prayers.

Kathryn said...

Praying for you Leanne. You know I too suffer from the whole anxiety/depression thing too. I'll be praying because I know specifically how to pray...the same way I pray for me. I'm awaiting your report on Pennie :) Love to you!

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

Family time is the best time!

I wish I could have been at your shower. I wish I could hug your neck in person right now! I wish I could hang out with you and drink a Big Train and just talk and talk and talk while you rest. Maybe one day.

Until then, know that I think of you often (okay, ALL the time) and I am praying for you.

Mucho love,

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