Thursday, August 19, 2010

Blessed

Guess What??

Lucie's going to be a BIG SISTER in the Spring!


We've known for a couple of months now, but we chose not to tell our scrumptious secret until we felt led to.  


I finally couldn't keep it quiet any more!


We're three months pregnant today.  


We're due around March 1st, 2011.


Sofia will get a Baby for her 5th birthday!


We saw a heartbeat on July 14th, via in-office ultrasound, when I was 7 weeks and one day.


I got to hear the faint, beautiful music of a heartbeat again on August 12th.  It was a healthy 172-175!


Next appointment: September 16th.


We ask that you would hold us up in prayer.  I'm trying not to let my medical history with pregnancies and stuff like that cloud my joy or take away from this pregnancy in any way......but.....for me, it's an uphill battle all the way.  I am having major issues that I cannot see the end of, with my finite, seen-through-a-glass-darkly vision.  I may blog about these issues soon, just so you gals out there who also struggle with the same things know that I'm not perfect and I struggle too.

I used to pray for a healthy, whole baby.  But I think that God has spoken to my heart about my views of what's "acceptable" and "not too hard" being totally different than His.  I'm NOT saying that it's not okay to pray for a healthy baby!!! Please don't read that here.  After all, that's my deepest heart's desire! But I have had a change of heart and I just want to be open to what He has for us, no matter what it is, and in the past, I haven't been open to that. I'm not saying that we are at higher risk for problems, or that I sense problems with this pregnancy.  But, what are HIS interpretations of healthy and whole?  He views babies that are physically or mentally challenged just as He views babies who are not challenged.  They are all perfect, precious and wanted in His sight.  We just want this baby so so bad that I have just been praying for His will, with some prayers thrown in about my will too, because I think He wants to hear all of the desires and wishes and thoughts of my heart.  He loves it when we share those things with Him, even though He already knows them.

So, please, I'm begging you out there who still read my blog, PLEASE pray for me.  Pray that something would break and that I would see light and joy and laughter again.  Please pray for me however you feel lead.....

And if you want to leave a comment on my post, please do.....I desperately need the encouragement!

More posts coming soon.



12 comments:

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

Oh yay for being able to say this out loud! Isn't it nice to be able to share your heart with the world?

I am praying for you, Leannie-loo! And I am praying for that precious little miracle growing inside you.

Keep trusting God.

I love you!
Marsha

Christine said...

Congratulations, Leanne! I'm so happy for you and your family. And you saw the heartbeat on MY birthday. :) I love you my friend and will be praying for you and the new little one.

Renata said...

OH Leanne - that's WONDERFUL news!!! Congratulations!
I'm praying for you & will continue. This child is such a precious blessing from the Lord - even in the carrying of him/her. Thanks for sharing your heart & I'll be praying for you as well as bub.
God bless
Renata :)

Kelli said...

I've been reading your blog for awhile. We have some things in common (like your favorite authors are some of my favorites and we are a homeschool family). Also, I've had two miscarriages so I know what that fear is like. Speaking of that, I loved your post on experiencing a miscarriage. You very eloquently expressed some of my own emotions.

A little over a year and a half ago, we had our second child - a boy named Peter. At 2 months, he was diagnosed with 2 heart defects. We went through a long, very difficult journey with him. God saw fit to give us a miracle. You can read more of our story on www.caringbridge.org/visit/peterellsworth or on our blog www.ellsworthstory.blogspot.com

Anyway, I said all that to say CONGRATULATIONS on your wonderful news!! I will be praying for you and your baby. Keep your eyes on Him who cares for you!

Kelli

Devin said...

Oh, such wonderful news!

Congratulations, my friend!

I am just so excited for you. Over the moon.

And, I will pray pray pray for this baby, and for you too! I totally am with you on the fear thing. It is very real.

Such a fantastic post!

Susan said...

Oh Happy day! So happy for you and will pray for a healthy pregnancy and a healthy baby.

Ericka said...

Congratulations, Leanne. I know you must be thrilled. I'm right behind you by a few weeks and also thrilled:) God is good...

Rebeca said...

Congrats! So happy that things are going well! May God give you grace and peace and joy!

Susan said...

Oh my gosh how exciting. I too have 6 girls and one boy. We lost a baby last October at 16 weeks so I am very nervous about this pregnancy. I am due Feb.28th. I am so glad I found your blog.

Kathryn said...

I shall pray the way you are praying...so happy for all of you! Love to you my dear friend...

Melissa Stover said...

congratulations! i will pray for you. what joy!

Karen said...

Leanne!!!

I am so thrilled...beyond thrilled!
Thank you for sharing this with us.

I will be praying for you and the wee one growing inside of you!
I will pray specifically that you will be so over flowed with joy that the enemy will not be able to cloud your thoughts!

Please post more so we can follow this wonderful story!

Love you!
Karen