A Ramble

I'm still here!!!

I've looked at my blog every day for the past week and realized I haven't posted in many days, but the truth is.......

What I have to say is just My Life.

Who wants to read about My Life?

I know most bloggers blog because they want to keep a record for their kids or because they don't want to forget this-and-that, but I blog because I like to write.  I have a million things running around in my head.....I just like to write.  

But I haven't written in a long time.

I have said I want to post pictures but just don't know where they all are.....

Truthfully, who really wants to read about My Life?

My Life isn't exciting.

I'm a homeschool mom of a big family who is conservative but not legalistically fundamental.  I like to cook.  I have lots of girls.  I'm pregnant for the 15th time.  I live in a small house.  I'm married to a long-time mailman.  I'm a singer.  I'm an introvert but am an extrovert with my Circle of Friends.  I love coffee drinks.  I love Mexican food.  I'm a closet Foodie.

None of that sounds very exciting.

To be honest, all of the things that I love and enjoy and need and want to do have gotten lost due to extreme exhaustion and health troubles.  I have forgotten who The Real Me is.  The exhaustion and every complication that comes with that has swallowed up The Real Me.

It has taken a near-death experience for both me and Baby Boy to realize that I needed help.

To make a long story short, I nearly died last Saturday night.  And so did Baby Boy.  I woke up many, many hours later in the ICU at a very, very good hospital an hour away from my home, on a respirator and with tubes and wires connecting to every space available on my body.  I spent three days in the hospital with my husband and some of the best doctors in the country, getting help.  

The Lord performed a Double Miracle for me and Baby Boy.

And I'm going to be okay.....and Baby Boy is going to be okay, but now, I have to try to remember who The Real Me is.

On a side note, if it hadn't been for the paramedics and the doctors who treated me and helped me, I and Baby Boy probably would not be here today writing this.  The American Medical Profession is very good for many things.  And on occasion, prescription medication is just plain necessary and unavoidable.......However......

We also believe in a naturopathic approach which addresses the Whole Person also.  We believe in getting to the bottom of medical issues and not just treating the symptoms or applying a bandaid.  We have a Naturopathic Physician whom we have been seeing for over 16 years and he has helped and healed our family in countless ways.  We have learned so much from him and he has helped our family to be as healthy as we can be.

That said, we are using a doubled-edged, comprehensive approach to my health.

I am using supplements to support my body while also using a prescription drug to allow me to have the health that I so desperately need and on which I have been missing out, slowly but surely, for the past 10 years.  The allopathic and naturopathic medical professions do compliment each other, and that is the approach we have decided on, in my road back to The Real Me and in the rest of my pregnancy.

So, the rest of this year will be spent on seeking The Real Me.

Who wants to read about that?? 

My blog isn't sensational, as evidenced by the very few readers I have.  My blog isn't ever going to be trendy or modern or hip or with-it.  I won't have ads or giveaways or cool stuff.  

The question is, will you still read it?

I love my readers.  A few of them have become very dear friends, like Erin and Tesha and  Renata, and you know what? It's worth it to me to ramble on here and be a writer just for those three girls!! 

Thanks for letting me ramble.  Thanks for letting me basically do a Heart and Brain Dump here.  I know it's been a bit rabbit trail-ish......but thanks for reading.

And thanks for praying for me as I start on the journey to find The Real Me.